I’ve pinched this from another blog but it’s something that looked fun and challenging so I thought why not!?
What is it?
The #blurtselfcareathon is a self care blog everyday by The Blurt foundation. The foundation itself is a social enterprise dedicated to helping those affected by depression. Or more information about the foundation click the above image. I myself don’t suffer with depression or mental health. however a lot of people do and they are suffering in silence and fighting a battle within them. Just recently whilst watching ITV ‘This Morning’ they unveiled project 84. 84 sculptures of 84 men who all have committed suicide.
84 men who suffered in silence who thought the best option was to end their lives. It’s heartbreaking to think families of those people are still suffering from their losses. Some are angry asking themselves why did they do it. For more information about the project can be found here. It struck a chord with me just seeing the sculptures on tv and it made me think we need to talk more about depression and mental health not just in men but women as well and also in schools as nowadays kids are pushed to the limit of trying to get the best grades they possibly can for there futures rather then being allowed the time to be just kids and for them to enjoy their school lives. I myself was slightly pushed during my school life to reach the grades I was targeted at but some of the targets I was set I didn’t get but that never stopped me from going to college and then earning my degree at university.
My university didn’t look at my school grades much hung my interview they were more interested in my portfolio of what things I had learnt during college and that was how I managed to get a unconditional offer the day of my interview. I can still remember vividly the lecturer coming out the room that I’d just had my interview in, and saying that was going to send an email to UCAS to give me a unconditional offer and that was it I was accepted into university. I don’t believe school grades matter as long as you show that your eager to learn the subject you are applying for and that you show enthusiasm to being there.
Anyway…. back to the start of the blog. I’m behind on the #blurtselfcareathon so i’m going to cram three days into one blog so here goes.
Day 1 10 things about me?
1. I‘m disabled
If you have already been reading my blog then you will already know this, if you haven’t then I suggest you go back and read some of my previous blogs. I’m a disabled person and proud of it.
2. I‘m obsessed with disney
I blame the parents for letting me watch hours and hours of disney films, and then sky tv box decided to have a channel dedicated to disney films so that is practically on all the time, I also have an obsession with disney mugs from the disney store if I had room for them I would buy them. As the saying goes you’re never to old for Disney.
3. I have Scoliosis
Ever since I can remember from a young age I knew my spine was becoming different. Scoliosis is when your spine curves some people get it mildly others it can be worse and be painful. By the time I was 16 my spine had curved 90% and it was on the brink of snapping. If it had snapped I would’ve been left paralysed from the waist down. I underwent a massive 7 and a half operation on it and now have metal rods in my back. But I did have a operation before that which I’m going to go into more detail in another blog.
4. I’m scared of the dark!
Ok it’s babyish i’m 26 soon to be 27 and i’m scared of the dark. I don’t know where its come from as I used to sleep with the lights off when I was much younger but now I can’t, whenever i’m in the dark I feel like
someones going to come up behind me, even in my own house when I know I’m safe and nothings going to get me. I still have to put the lights on to go into a room. Even if i’m staying with a friend in a hotel I still have to leave the bathroom light on and the door ajar just so there’s a bit of light in the room. One day I hope to break out this fear but until now its lights on.
5. I can never stop buying books even though I have loads to read already.
The title says it all. I should be called Matilda Wormwood. Yes I’m always reading something, but there are so many books on my kindle device that I haven’t got round to reading, however I always buy more on amazon and keep adding to the collection. Damn you Amazon and your 99p deals on books.
6. I’m not a talker in big groups.
When there’s a big group of people sat around me I don’t tend to speak as I think I will come out with something that will make myself look stupid in front of everyone, I usually sit and listen to whats being said by others. I prefer talking to people one to one or in a group where theres only three people around.
7. I have a car with no steering wheel.
Again another blog I need to write about, the title is true. My car was specially adapted for me. All I have to steer is a metal rod that is by the side of me. Peoples faces sometimes when waiting in a queue of cars, they glance over and then they have to look again. I can see it exactly what there thinking how on earth can I be driving with no steering wheel.
8. I can live on pasta and rice.
If I could eat pasta or rice all the time then I would easily and happily. I probably prefer pasta to rice though. During university I think I ate so much pasta (I brought myself one of those massive bags of penne pasta that lasted me both my first and second year) I seriously would be happy to live off a bowl of pasta smothered in domino Tomato and basil sauce.
9. I am a hoarder of memories
memories mean everything to me. In my loft at home I have a case which is full of school things that I’ve kept. Then I have a box full of my university stuff that I could go through and throw some of the stuff away that I don’t need, but I haven’t as it’s memories to me. I even have random videos on my laptop drive of videos I’ve recorded from college, uni, everything. To me it’s all memories.
10. I’m a bit of a history geek
During my through my school years I loved history mostly learning about Both World Wars, the Victorian period and Tudor England. During a parents evening in high school I was told I should take it up for my GCSE. that was such a bad decision. I sometimes wish I had never took it. The subject of my GCSE paper was medicine through time. I was having to learn about injections and medicines which used to make me feel ill as I was learning these things only a few months after I had come out of hospital after my operation where so I had injections and medication, and I didn’t fancy learning about it. I ended disliking history at that point. In the end earned a G grade in the test. Moving to now I have re kindled my love of history on two subjects the world wars and the Tudor’s. (Mostly the Tudor’s) Any books fiction or non fiction about the Tudor period I will happily read, the same goes for tv shows if it’s about the Tudor period then I will watch it. I find that period of time fascinating.
There we have it 10 things about me
Day Two – Obstacles
In my life I have faced so many obstacles, some I have managed to overcome others I’m still working on achieving. I think my biggest obstacle was knowing I was moving into my university flat and having to learn to live on my own without my parents support. Throughout my life I have needed support with personal needs and it’s always been my family that have helped me. So to go from having my parents support to having to trust others to help me who I had to get used to and them me. The lead up to moving to university I was getting nervous and thinking had I made the right decision. Something was trying to stop me going but I went.
Being at university helped me so much, I found my independence of looking after myself, learning to adapt to doing household chores, washing and sometimes cooking on my own. I know everyone goes through the same thing when they go to university, but for me being a disabled person this was a massive change to my life. The one day during my first year I was sat in a lecture writing down notes and it hit me, I was at university an hour and a half away from home, I was doing this on my own. It was both a odd feeling but an amazing one at the same time. It’s hard to describe. On graduation day when I walked across the stage. I kept thinking I’ve done it. I had overcome one of my the biggest obstacles living and getting through university on my own.
Day Three – Boost
Whenever I’m having a crappy bad day and I need some sort of a boost. My cure is to stop whatever it is I’m doing, make myself a cup of tea in one of my favourite mugs, a cup of tea for me always makes things better. Then I usually if I’m at home put on an episode of BBC’s Merlin that I have stored on my skybox (even though I’ve watched the series so many times I know what happens during the episodes. It’s still one of my all time favourite series) Also if I’m out and about and I need a boost I will put my earphones in and play my feel good playlist on my phone. Seriously always make sure you have a playlist full of uplifting feel good tunes that you love. On my list I have so many 90s cheesy pop (it helps). Those are my things that give me a boost And make my days better. Let me know yours in the comments below.
So there we go three days of blogs in one, fingers crossed I can do this, some blogs might be long, others short but it’s a challenge I’ve accepted.
One arm wonder signing out.